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Am C
I want to brush my hair some more
G F
But I’m scared it might fall out
Am C
I want to paint my face again
G F
But I’m scared that they might shout
Am C
I dream of being pretty
G F
More than I do of thriving
Am C
And dream of being remembered
G F
More than I do surviving
Am C
I cross and cross and cross these trails
G F
And cross re-cross old paths
Am C
Retread through all the footsteps
G F
Where once we were so sad
Am C
It’s nice to revisit
G F
It's nice to replant
Am C
But do I garden my trauma
G F Am C G F
Like the spineless sycophant
Am C
In busy rooms all there for me
G F
I still feel misunderstood
Am
But it’s ungrateful brain
C G F
And chosen pain, to say I feel unloved
Am
I might be often drama king
C G F
I may mope and pout and grumble
Am C
Even in improving circumstance
G F
I still find myself disgruntled
Am C
I dig and dig, dig out my brain
G F
With primordial soup spoon
Am C G F
Phantasmagoric memories are slowly detuned
Am C G F
And endlessly I rewrite all my histories of you
Am C G F
Unstable causality, breathes into tapestries untrue
Am C G F
And soon unsure the guilt I feel just comes from my disposition
Am C G F
If these proppian dichotomies are just my own rendition
Am C G F
Some days I feel the hero, other days I feel the villain
Am C G F A C G F
Perhaps we both are mutually instigator and the victim
Am
I want to think so fickle
A G F
And live just aesthetic life
Am
Because this self-analysis
G F
It cuts through me like a knife
Am C
It slices so mathematically
G F
Into these perfect halves
Am Cm
And the binary of thinking
G F
Can tear my head apart