Verse
Dm F
I want to brush my hair some more
C A#
But I’m scared it might fall out
Dm F
I want to paint my face again
C A#
But I’m scared that they might shout
Dm F
I dream of being pretty
C A#
More than I do of thriving
Dm F
And dream of being remembered
C A#
More than I do surviving
Dm F
I cross and cross and cross these trails
C A#
And cross re-cross old paths
Dm F
Retread through all the footsteps
C A#
Where once we were so sad
Dm F
It’s nice to revisit
C A#
It's nice to replant
Dm F
But do I garden my trauma
C A# Dm F C A#
Like the spineless sycophant
Dm F
In busy rooms all there for me
C A#
I still feel misunderstood
Dm
But it’s ungrateful brain
F C A#
And chosen pain, to say I feel unloved
Dm
I might be often drama king
F C A#
I may mope and pout and grumble
Dm F
Even in improving circumstance
C A#
I still find myself disgruntled
Dm F
I dig and dig, dig out my brain
C A#
With primordial soup spoon
Dm F C A#
Phantasmagoric memories are slowly detuned
Dm F C A#
And endlessly I rewrite all my histories of you
Dm F C A#
Unstable causality, breathes into tapestries untrue
Dm F C A#
And soon unsure the guilt I feel just comes from my disposition
Dm F C A#
If these proppian dichotomies are just my own rendition
Dm F C A#
Some days I feel the hero, other days I feel the villain
Dm F C A# D F C A#
Perhaps we both are mutually instigator and the victim
Dm
I want to think so fickle
D C A#
And live just aesthetic life
Dm
Because this self-analysis
C A#
It cuts through me like a knife
Dm F
It slices so mathematically
C A#
Into these perfect halves
Dm Fm
And the binary of thinking
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Can tear my head apart