[Verse 1]
Gm A#
I want to create to maybe find those who relate,
D# F
but my struggles feel inadequate and all I make just simulates
Gm A#
what I can't explain. And it feels like I feign
D# F
these difficulties, opportunistically to capitalize off my pain
[Chorus 1]
Gm A# D# F
to make art from something difficult, well, I know it can be healing
Gm A# D# F
But how much do I rely on self-destructive feelings?
Gm A# D# F
Will I better myself if the fuel for the fire is demoralizing patterns?
Gm A# D# F
Is it really constructive to wait for the next bad thing to happen?
[Verse 2]
Gm A#
Is it inspiration? Is it a way of confronting?
D# F
Fm I stagnating or am I overcoming?
Gm A#
I feel like sharing this is so unbecoming
D# F
And though I want to vent and pay the rent perhaps it's better to do nothing
[Chorus 2]
Gm A# D# F
How much do I undermine my own and others trauma?
Gm A# D# F
When I quickly repurpose it as a sellable melodrama?
Gm A# D# F
Sometimes i doubt myself so much. Are my tragedies authentic
Gm A# D# F
or just a creative writing tool for me to make a buck quick?
[Verse 3]
Gm A#
Well if someone I love dies will I find I start to write
D# F
an entire concept album about how they're no longer alive?
Gm A#
And will it really be needed to profit from the process?
D# F
Does it come from a need to make art to survive or just dramatic excess?
[Verse 4]
Gm A#
If threre's a fire and I think I'm gonna die,
D# F
the more I repeat it the more it feels like a lie
Gm A#
Well it's not that bad, well at least, at least, at least...
D# F
At least I didn't die so that this song could be released
[Chorus 1]
Gm A# D# F
to make art from something difficult, well, I know it can be healing
Gm A# D# F
But how much do I rely on self-destructive feelings?
Gm A# D# F
Will I better myself if the fuel for the fire is demoralizing patterns?
Gm A# D# F
Is it really constructive to wait for the next bad thing to happen?
[Instrumental]
[Chorus 2]
Gm A# D# F
How much do I undermine my own and others trauma?
Gm A# D# F
When I quickly repurpose it as a sellable melodrama?
Gm A# D# F
Sometimes i doubt myself so much. Are my tragedies authentic
Gm A# D# F
or just a creative writing tool for me to make a buck quick?