[Verse 1]
A#m C#
I want to create to maybe find those who relate,
F# G#
but my struggles feel inadequate and all I make just simulates
A#m C#
what I can't explain. And it feels like I feign
F# G#
these difficulties, opportunistically to capitalize off my pain
[Chorus 1]
A#m C# F# G#
to make art from something difficult, well, I know it can be healing
A#m C# F# G#
But how much do I rely on self-destructive feelings?
A#m C# F# G#
Will I better myself if the fuel for the fire is demoralizing patterns?
A#m C# F# G#
Is it really constructive to wait for the next bad thing to happen?
[Verse 2]
A#m C#
Is it inspiration? Is it a way of confronting?
F# G#
G#m I stagnating or am I overcoming?
A#m C#
I feel like sharing this is so unbecoming
F# G#
And though I want to vent and pay the rent perhaps it's better to do nothing
[Chorus 2]
A#m C# F# G#
How much do I undermine my own and others trauma?
A#m C# F# G#
When I quickly repurpose it as a sellable melodrama?
A#m C# F# G#
Sometimes i doubt myself so much. Are my tragedies authentic
A#m C# F# G#
or just a creative writing tool for me to make a buck quick?
[Verse 3]
A#m C#
Well if someone I love dies will I find I start to write
F# G#
an entire concept album about how they're no longer alive?
A#m C#
And will it really be needed to profit from the process?
F# G#
Does it come from a need to make art to survive or just dramatic excess?
[Verse 4]
A#m C#
If threre's a fire and I think I'm gonna die,
F# G#
the more I repeat it the more it feels like a lie
A#m C#
Well it's not that bad, well at least, at least, at least...
F# G#
At least I didn't die so that this song could be released
[Chorus 1]
A#m C# F# G#
to make art from something difficult, well, I know it can be healing
A#m C# F# G#
But how much do I rely on self-destructive feelings?
A#m C# F# G#
Will I better myself if the fuel for the fire is demoralizing patterns?
A#m C# F# G#
Is it really constructive to wait for the next bad thing to happen?
[Instrumental]
[Chorus 2]
A#m C# F# G#
How much do I undermine my own and others trauma?
A#m C# F# G#
When I quickly repurpose it as a sellable melodrama?
A#m C# F# G#
Sometimes i doubt myself so much. Are my tragedies authentic
A#m C# F# G#
or just a creative writing tool for me to make a buck quick?