[Verse 1]
Cm D#
I want to create to maybe find those who relate,
G# A#
but my struggles feel inadequate and all I make just simulates
Cm D#
what I can't explain. And it feels like I feign
G# A#
these difficulties, opportunistically to capitalize off my pain
[Chorus 1]
Cm D# G# A#
to make art from something difficult, well, I know it can be healing
Cm D# G# A#
But how much do I rely on self-destructive feelings?
Cm D# G# A#
Will I better myself if the fuel for the fire is demoralizing patterns?
Cm D# G# A#
Is it really constructive to wait for the next bad thing to happen?
[Verse 2]
Cm D#
Is it inspiration? Is it a way of confronting?
G# A#
A#m I stagnating or am I overcoming?
Cm D#
I feel like sharing this is so unbecoming
G# A#
And though I want to vent and pay the rent perhaps it's better to do nothing
[Chorus 2]
Cm D# G# A#
How much do I undermine my own and others trauma?
Cm D# G# A#
When I quickly repurpose it as a sellable melodrama?
Cm D# G# A#
Sometimes i doubt myself so much. Are my tragedies authentic
Cm D# G# A#
or just a creative writing tool for me to make a buck quick?
[Verse 3]
Cm D#
Well if someone I love dies will I find I start to write
G# A#
an entire concept album about how they're no longer alive?
Cm D#
And will it really be needed to profit from the process?
G# A#
Does it come from a need to make art to survive or just dramatic excess?
[Verse 4]
Cm D#
If threre's a fire and I think I'm gonna die,
G# A#
the more I repeat it the more it feels like a lie
Cm D#
Well it's not that bad, well at least, at least, at least...
G# A#
At least I didn't die so that this song could be released
[Chorus 1]
Cm D# G# A#
to make art from something difficult, well, I know it can be healing
Cm D# G# A#
But how much do I rely on self-destructive feelings?
Cm D# G# A#
Will I better myself if the fuel for the fire is demoralizing patterns?
Cm D# G# A#
Is it really constructive to wait for the next bad thing to happen?
[Instrumental]
[Chorus 2]
Cm D# G# A#
How much do I undermine my own and others trauma?
Cm D# G# A#
When I quickly repurpose it as a sellable melodrama?
Cm D# G# A#
Sometimes i doubt myself so much. Are my tragedies authentic
Cm D# G# A#
or just a creative writing tool for me to make a buck quick?