[Verse 1]
Am C
I want to create to maybe find those who relate,
F G
but my struggles feel inadequate and all I make just simulates
Am C
what I can't explain. And it feels like I feign
F G
these difficulties, opportunistically to capitalize off my pain
[Chorus 1]
Am C F G
to make art from something difficult, well, I know it can be healing
Am C F G
But how much do I rely on self-destructive feelings?
Am C F G
Will I better myself if the fuel for the fire is demoralizing patterns?
Am C F G
Is it really constructive to wait for the next bad thing to happen?
[Verse 2]
Am C
Is it inspiration? Is it a way of confronting?
F G
Gm I stagnating or am I overcoming?
Am C
I feel like sharing this is so unbecoming
F G
And though I want to vent and pay the rent perhaps it's better to do nothing
[Chorus 2]
Am C F G
How much do I undermine my own and others trauma?
Am C F G
When I quickly repurpose it as a sellable melodrama?
Am C F G
Sometimes i doubt myself so much. Are my tragedies authentic
Am C F G
or just a creative writing tool for me to make a buck quick?
[Verse 3]
Am C
Well if someone I love dies will I find I start to write
F G
an entire concept album about how they're no longer alive?
Am C
And will it really be needed to profit from the process?
F G
Does it come from a need to make art to survive or just dramatic excess?
[Verse 4]
Am C
If threre's a fire and I think I'm gonna die,
F G
the more I repeat it the more it feels like a lie
Am C
Well it's not that bad, well at least, at least, at least...
F G
At least I didn't die so that this song could be released
[Chorus 1]
Am C F G
to make art from something difficult, well, I know it can be healing
Am C F G
But how much do I rely on self-destructive feelings?
Am C F G
Will I better myself if the fuel for the fire is demoralizing patterns?
Am C F G
Is it really constructive to wait for the next bad thing to happen?
[Instrumental]
[Chorus 2]
Am C F G
How much do I undermine my own and others trauma?
Am C F G
When I quickly repurpose it as a sellable melodrama?
Am C F G
Sometimes i doubt myself so much. Are my tragedies authentic
Am C F G
or just a creative writing tool for me to make a buck quick?