[Verse 1]
C#m E
I want to create to maybe find those who relate,
A B
but my struggles feel inadequate and all I make just simulates
C#m E
what I can't explain. And it feels like I feign
A B
these difficulties, opportunistically to capitalize off my pain
[Chorus 1]
C#m E A B
to make art from something difficult, well, I know it can be healing
C#m E A B
But how much do I rely on self-destructive feelings?
C#m E A B
Will I better myself if the fuel for the fire is demoralizing patterns?
C#m E A B
Is it really constructive to wait for the next bad thing to happen?
[Verse 2]
C#m E
Is it inspiration? Is it a way of confronting?
A B
Bm I stagnating or am I overcoming?
C#m E
I feel like sharing this is so unbecoming
A B
And though I want to vent and pay the rent perhaps it's better to do nothing
[Chorus 2]
C#m E A B
How much do I undermine my own and others trauma?
C#m E A B
When I quickly repurpose it as a sellable melodrama?
C#m E A B
Sometimes i doubt myself so much. Are my tragedies authentic
C#m E A B
or just a creative writing tool for me to make a buck quick?
[Verse 3]
C#m E
Well if someone I love dies will I find I start to write
A B
an entire concept album about how they're no longer alive?
C#m E
And will it really be needed to profit from the process?
A B
Does it come from a need to make art to survive or just dramatic excess?
[Verse 4]
C#m E
If threre's a fire and I think I'm gonna die,
A B
the more I repeat it the more it feels like a lie
C#m E
Well it's not that bad, well at least, at least, at least...
A B
At least I didn't die so that this song could be released
[Chorus 1]
C#m E A B
to make art from something difficult, well, I know it can be healing
C#m E A B
But how much do I rely on self-destructive feelings?
C#m E A B
Will I better myself if the fuel for the fire is demoralizing patterns?
C#m E A B
Is it really constructive to wait for the next bad thing to happen?
[Instrumental]
[Chorus 2]
C#m E A B
How much do I undermine my own and others trauma?
C#m E A B
When I quickly repurpose it as a sellable melodrama?
C#m E A B
Sometimes i doubt myself so much. Are my tragedies authentic
C#m E A B
or just a creative writing tool for me to make a buck quick?