A
If I could rewind time like a tape
C#m F#m
Inside a boombox, one day for every pill or Percocet that I ate
Cut down on the Valium, I'da heard everything
A
But death is turning so definite—wait!
They got me all hooked up to some machine
E
I love you, being, didn't want you to know I was struggling
F#m
Feels like I'm underwater submerged like a submarine
Just heard that nurse say, my liver and kidneys aren't functioning
A
Been flirtatious with death, skirt-chasing, I guess
C#m
It's arrivederci, same nurse, just heard say they're unplugging me
F#m
And it's your birthday, Jade, I'm missing your birthday
A
Baby girl, I'm sorry, I fucking hate when you hurt, Hai
And sweeties, thank you for waiting to open gifts
E
But, girls, you can just open 'em
F#m
Dad ain't making it home for Christmas
Wish I had the strength to just blow a kiss
I go to make a fist, but I can't make one, I'm frozen stiff
A
I yell, but nothing comes out, I'm crying inside, I shout
C#m F#m
My vocal cords won't permit me, I scream, but it's not aloud
You put your arm around Mama to calm her, wow
A
I just thought about the aisle, I'll never get to walk us down
Never see you graduate in your caps and gowns
E F#m
It's 'bout to be 2008, how's this happening now?
I've got so much more to do
A
And, Proof, I'm truly sorry if I let you down, but this tore me in two
The thought of no more me and you
C#m F#m
You gave me shoes, Nikes like new for me for school
Doody, I'm trying, but you, you were the glue that binded
A
So many things—time, I'd give anything to rewind it
E
I had to walk down my halls and constantly be reminded
F#m
By pictures all on my walls and I couldn't sleep at night 'cause
That image burned in my brain of you on that table
A
Me falling across your body, not able to stand to save you
God, why did you take him?
C#m
I´m tryna keep his legacy alive, but I´m dying, where's Nathan?
F#m
Little ladies, be brave, take care of your mother
Smile pretty for pictures, always cherish each other
A
I'll always love ya, and I'll be in the back of your memory
E
And I know you'll never forget me
Just don't get sad when remembering
F#m
And, little bro, keep making me proud
You better marry that girl 'cause she's faithfully down
A
And when you're exchanging those sacred vows
C#m
Just know that if I could be there, I would
And should you ever see parenthood, I know you'll be good at it
F#m
Oh, almost forgot to do something, thank my father too
I actually learned a lot from you
A
You taught me what not to do
And, Mom, wish I'd have had the chance
E F#m
To have one last heart-to-heart honest and open talk with you
Doody, I see you, I go to walk to you
A
And I can feel my soul leave my body and float across the room
C#m
Nurses lean over the bed, pulling tubes out
F#m
Then the sheet over my head, shut the room down
Girls, please don't get upset
A
I see them cheeks soaking and wet, so forcibly, don't wanna let
E
Me go, pillow drenched, emotional wrecks
F#m
With every second, each closer to death
But suddenly I feel my heart begin to beat slow
Then a breath, machines go (*beep beep beep*)
A
Must've guessed the cheat codes to this shit
C#m
I'm tryna rewind time like a tape
F#m
Find an escape, make a beeline, try and awake
From this dream, I need to re-find my inner strength
A
To remind me, even if a steep climb I must take
To rewrite a mistake, I'm rewinding the tape