B
If I could rewind time like a tape
D#m G#m
Inside a boombox, one day for every pill or Percocet that I ate
Cut down on the Valium, I'da heard everything
B
But death is turning so definite—wait!
They got me all hooked up to some machine
F#
I love you, being, didn't want you to know I was struggling
G#m
Feels like I'm underwater submerged like a submarine
Just heard that nurse say, my liver and kidneys aren't functioning
B
Been flirtatious with death, skirt-chasing, I guess
D#m
It's arrivederci, same nurse, just heard say they're unplugging me
G#m
And it's your birthday, Jade, I'm missing your birthday
B
Baby girl, I'm sorry, I fucking hate when you hurt, Hai
And sweeties, thank you for waiting to open gifts
F#
But, girls, you can just open 'em
G#m
Dad ain't making it home for Christmas
Wish I had the strength to just blow a kiss
I go to make a fist, but I can't make one, I'm frozen stiff
B
I yell, but nothing comes out, I'm crying inside, I shout
D#m G#m
My vocal cords won't permit me, I scream, but it's not aloud
You put your arm around Mama to calm her, wow
B
I just thought about the aisle, I'll never get to walk us down
Never see you graduate in your caps and gowns
F# G#m
It's 'bout to be 2008, how's this happening now?
I've got so much more to do
B
And, Proof, I'm truly sorry if I let you down, but this tore me in two
The thought of no more me and you
D#m G#m
You gave me shoes, Nikes like new for me for school
Doody, I'm trying, but you, you were the glue that binded
B
So many things—time, I'd give anything to rewind it
F#
I had to walk down my halls and constantly be reminded
G#m
By pictures all on my walls and I couldn't sleep at night 'cause
That image burned in my brain of you on that table
B
Me falling across your body, not able to stand to save you
God, why did you take him?
D#m
I´m tryna keep his legacy alive, but I´m dying, where's Nathan?
G#m
Little ladies, be brave, take care of your mother
Smile pretty for pictures, always cherish each other
B
I'll always love ya, and I'll be in the back of your memory
F#
And I know you'll never forget me
Just don't get sad when remembering
G#m
And, little bro, keep making me proud
You better marry that girl 'cause she's faithfully down
B
And when you're exchanging those sacred vows
D#m
Just know that if I could be there, I would
And should you ever see parenthood, I know you'll be good at it
G#m
Oh, almost forgot to do something, thank my father too
I actually learned a lot from you
B
You taught me what not to do
And, Mom, wish I'd have had the chance
F# G#m
To have one last heart-to-heart honest and open talk with you
Doody, I see you, I go to walk to you
B
And I can feel my soul leave my body and float across the room
D#m
Nurses lean over the bed, pulling tubes out
G#m
Then the sheet over my head, shut the room down
Girls, please don't get upset
B
I see them cheeks soaking and wet, so forcibly, don't wanna let
F#
Me go, pillow drenched, emotional wrecks
G#m
With every second, each closer to death
But suddenly I feel my heart begin to beat slow
Then a breath, machines go (*beep beep beep*)
B
Must've guessed the cheat codes to this shit
D#m
I'm tryna rewind time like a tape
G#m
Find an escape, make a beeline, try and awake
From this dream, I need to re-find my inner strength
B
To remind me, even if a steep climb I must take
To rewrite a mistake, I'm rewinding the tape